刀疤李

Yesterday after dinner, Gaby accidentally scratched Alexius' forehead when he tried to pull away a book from him.

Gaby wanted to do some drawing and so took out his drawing book... which is book whereby I binded together with some rough papers. The hard plastic 'bone' that holds the paper together has some sharp edges. So when Gaby tried to pull the book away from Alexius, one of the sharp edges scratched Alexius forehead.

This morning it did not look as bad. Now it really looks like just a tiny scratch. But I think Gaby is feeling really sorry about it. He even give Alexius a kiss before he goes to school.

Itchy ear habit

出出力

Alexius funny face when he tried to use 'big force'.

初恋真的好难忘

Out of the blue on Saturday morning when i was about to brush his teeth, Gaby told me with teary eyes and a little shivering mouth that he misses ZQ... I was really lost on how I should response to that. So I told him that it's ok, ZQ misses you too even though she is in another school now. Thank goodness he did not dwell on this topic...

On Tuesday, after I walked Gaby to his assembly hall, I stood at the window watching him. Mrs R was telling a story but he wasn't paying attention but instead was looking at Megan and another girl's conversation about Megan's hairclip. I can't really hear what was the conversation about but I could see Gaby smiling at the 2 girls and then turn his head back to Mrs R. Then it just makes me think about him with ZQ. I think Gaby was really serious whenever he told me that ZQ was his best girlfriend. I really couldn't explain it... but the kind of closeness that both of them share, him holding her hands the first thing he reached class, the sparkle in his eyes when he interacts with her... Haizz.. too bad I dun have their telephone nos. Hardly spoken to ZQ's mum before. So I guess we just have to leave it to fate.

Who's birthday is it today?

Mine! Who else would it be?? I was just thinking about it.... I use to know 2 other persons that have their birthday on the same day as mine. One is a male friend of my same age and the other is a girlfriend that's a year younger. I am wondering how have they been? Are they doing very well in life? The last time I met them was many donkey years ago. And I heard from friends that the guy is doing some small business of his own now and as for the girl used to be a flight attendant but am not sure if she is still flying now or is she married with kids already. But really, when you share birthdays, do you share the same fate?

Gaby's wish on mummy's birthday.

Alexius signing

Some updates of Alexius. He is able to sign...

Please
Thank you
Milk
More
Eat
Where

Am trying to get him to sign "mummy" which he always ended up doing it as a "thank you" sign. Also, trying to teach him the "go home", "drink", "poo poo", "dad dad" and "sleep" sign.

Till we meet again...

This was what I have written on my last day at the old office...


Today is the BIG day… office moving day. Should I say today is the last day at the old office or the new day at the new office?? I’m actually feeling a little mixed feeling. Part of me is looking forward to starting work in the new office environment but part of me do feel very sad that I am leaving this place… for good?

I started working around Raffles Place area since 1992, gosh! That’s how many donkeys years ago! In between I did join other companies for a couple of years… I think I was just out of RP around 1997 to 2000… about 3 years only. Thereafter, from year 2000 I think I have been in this area. I really like this place. The hawker food is cheap and nice and there are also many shops around here to shop when I want to skive! Hehehe!

Back to my ‘history’ here… and out of the many years working in RP, I have been working in this same office building for around 8 years! 8 lovely years!!! Now that I am calculating the numbers of years here, wow! 8 years! Can’t believe how time flies! I think this office building is my 旺地… lucky land… I have the most wonderful working memories here with my previous boss and colleagues before I went on a almost 1 year break after having Gaby. Then after that it’s back to this building with my current employer. Also, some of my ex-colleagues once told me that perhaps it was the ‘lucky air’ in this building that helps with me conceiving both Gaby and Alexius. I don’t know much about the fengshui being at my advantage in this building but I really like this office building. One very important factor is that the ladies toilets here are very clean and spacious! And also the view that both offices (previous employer and current employer) facing the Singapore River unblocked!

As I am typing away on my lappie, the workers are moving the boxes. I can feel that my time here in this office is slowly running out.

I had just finished pumping milk in my usual ‘nursing room’. It’s a nice room with half of it’s view facing the river. It’s very relaxing doing the pump in this room. I am not sure where I can do my milk pumping when we move to the new office. The last time we visited the place, I noticed that all the rooms are ‘open’ concept’. Instead of solid walls, they are see-through glass paneled walls. I hope they will change them into frosted ones during the renovation. Else I will have to use the tiny bathrooms instead!

The weather is starting to get a little gloomy now… I hope it’ll not rain cos I would like to take a few pics of the surroundings.

I think I will still come back to this area once in a while. My favourite doctor is still here and I will have to come back here to buy my glucosamine tablets from him.

Well, one good thing about moving off from here is that I will not have to pass by “THAT” building every morning anymore! Yipppeee! I really hate that feeling of my heart tugging whenever I passed by THAT building. I hate to be reminded of the INCIDENT everytime I passed by THAT building.

On 5th March, I went to the temple with Pat to ‘beat small people’. But in the end I didn’t ‘beat’ cos the old uncle in the temple advised that it’ll be do me good if I just pray for good luck and happiness and to let the small people off. 大人不计小人过. I don’t really know how many ‘small people’ are there in my life but there are 2 that I think are the ‘smallest people’ in my life. After going to the temple I went to get some stuff from Watson’s and on the way back to the office, I saw one of the ‘small people’. I don’t think she saw me… but looking at her and seeing that she seems to be having a good life now. It just makes me wonder again…. That could be my kind of good life if not for the INCIDENT. Guess I still feel a bit bit sour… Anyway, I just hope that once the office is at the new place, I will not bump into the small people and I will not have to drive pass THAT building anymore… at least less often… then perhaps the sourness will be gone soon.

The workers are gone, the place is so peaceful and quiet now. And I am doing my ‘milking’ again. One last time before leaving the office.

The last one to leave, please switch off all the lights… that’s me…

Mr Smilely

Today is the 2nd time Alexius woke up with a smile even before he opened his eyes. The last time was a couple of weeks ago...

It's nice to see a sweet smilely face in the morning.

What is the right thing to do leh?

Yesterday Gaby came home from the playground very upset. He told me that he is upset becos his friends didn't want to let him play with their toys. Said that Shawn and Yiyang didn't want to share their toys when he asked them for permission (yes, i have taught him that he has to ask permission before taking things from other people). So I told him that it's ok if his friends didn't want to share the toys, perhaps they still want to play with it themselves. But he replied that they are not playing with it anymore and still didn't want to share... he feels that his friends didn't like him anymore. I can see that he is really upset. So I told him that it's not everytime that when you ask, you will get. Sometimes he has to be ready for rejection. And you know what he told me, he said that ah mah said if they didn't want to share then in future he don't have to share with them. OMG!!! I quickly corrected him that no, this is not really how ah mah meant... I tried to twist it around for ah mah. Actually I am not very sure if ah mah really said this to him.

I remembered that sometime ago I have told him and not once but a few times that if his friends want to share his toys, he should readily said yes. But if he still wants to continue playing with them and not ready to share, then he has to tell his friends nicely that sorry, i am still playing with it and I will lend it to you later. So yesterday I told him the same, and that even if this friend didn't want to share his toy with him, he shouldn't feel revengful about it and not want to share toys or play with this friend in future. And before bedtime, I tried to remind him about what I told him before. I hope he remembers... will remind him again later when I reached home.

Accident - Gaby sat on Alexius

My poor Alexius had a fall on Sunday morning near the playground area... Can't really see what exactly happened. When I turned my head and saw the boys with Gong Gong, within a second, I saw Gaby sitting on Alexius tummy and Alexius was on the ground liao. My immediate reaction is to run towards them and pick Alexius up. Poor boy was screaming already! I think Gaby was a bit frightened by the accident but of course I didn't blame him for the fall. Other then trying to pacify Alexius, I kept asking Gaby if he has hurt himself during the fall. While we were making our way back home, I noticed a bruise on the back of Alexius head. There were some blood... and now whenever we ask Alexius where does he feel pain, he'll touch his head. The bruise looks less angry this morning...

Is it right?

Dad was hospitalised at SGH from Sunday till Wednesday. I didn't tell Gaby the details of why and how gong gong was hospitalised. Just told him that gong gong has a bad tummy ache and needed to stay at the hospital for a few days until he gets better. He was quite worried that gong gong will not come home and asked me if gong gong will pass away. Of course I assured him that gong gong will be home very soon. And also, to rest his mind, I brought him to visit gong gong at the hospital on Sunday nite.

Then on Tuesday, Gaby started to talk about Uncle Charlie again. It was a cloudy day that day after school. I was home since Mr Lee has to work and mum wanted to accompany dad at the hospital. While showering Gaby, he suddenly asked me "Mum it's cloudy today... uncle Charlie is still staying in the clouds right? Will he come down to see me?" I was thinking that he is probably more mature now and understand the meaning of death since we have talked about death sometime ago. So I told him that yes, Uncle Charlie has passed away and is now living in the clouds and will not come back. But he replied that Uncle Charlie can come back cos he has seen him! I guess he is imagining...

I do miss Uncle Charlie too...

Some old shots

Found some old pic of Gaby... gosh! he looked so baby. Realised that the sparkle in his eyes are still the same.

Leakage!

Hooray! I think I have managed to increase my milk production! Last night I did my last pump around 11pm. Before I went to bed, I took 4 capsules of Fenugreek and a glass of milk. And this morning, I woke up at about 5.30am becos my right breast was feeling really uncomfortable... felt a little engorged. Haven't felt this for sooooo long. But instead of feeling angry at myself for waking up so early, i was a little happy of this engorged feeling! Hehehe! Anyway, since I'm up early and the feeling is quite impossible for me to get back to sleep, I prepared Alexius' morning feed and gave him his milk early. While I was feeding him, I felt a little wet on my pj. Initially I thought it was the water from the warmer that wet my pj and so din bother too much about it. After Alexius finished his milk, while i was brushing my teeth, that's when i realised that miss right is dripping!! Ha! so all the effort to increase the flow the past few days did pay off!

Hibernate...

Last nite, Mr P was hiding behind my pillow sleeping peacefully. But Mr Lee has to do something to the dog so he placed a bolster over the dog and then he lie down with his head over the bolster. But I think Mr P was too sleepy. He did not move a bit at all and continue to sleep!