Supposed to be the last drop

I have been thinking hard abt it and decided that Friday would be the last day i pump milk. Was so determined about it... I even told Ms Fat Fingers. Haizzz... BUT... Big fat but... i woke up on saturday morning and was like... very lost, dont know what to do. when i went into the kitchen to get Alexius' milk ready and saw the pump, i just couldnt help it and thought "Alright, pump another day... anyway am free in the next 2 hours" so I took the pump into my room and express again. And since 1 day of pumping will not be enough for Alexius', I have to do it the next day.

I kept asking myself "why do u still want to do it?" It's been 2 1/2 years. Enough. So today i am more determined to do it. One big reason being Ms Fridge is not working properly today. No proper storage for my milk.

Am really sad to be putting away the pump. I really dont understand why i could develop such strong attachment to it?

Good bye Jerry

Not sure when but Jerry seems to have not visit Gaby for a long time. Jerry used to be everywhere around Gaby 24/7. But not now anymore :( Gaby doesnt seem to be affected by the absence of Jerry. There isnt any tearful goodbyes... But I feel a little sad that Jerry is gone.

Now I can fully understand why Jerry was such an important friend of Gaby. Reason being that Gaby was very lonely. Alexius was too young to be Gaby's playmate then so no choice, Gaby brought Jerry into his life. Jerry has been such a good companion... he played and did everything with Gaby. And they didnt fight at all... I think that's the best part of having Jerry.

When I look at Gaby interacting with Alexius, sometimes I will imagine Alexius being Jerry... weird thou... seems as if Jerry has taken its form...

Jerry, thank you so much for being such a faithful friend to Gaby... keeping him company thru thin and thick... not a single word of complain from you for all the nonsense that you have to put up with Gaby. Doing anything that Gaby instructed. All this while waiting patiently for Alexius to grow up so that Alexius takes over your role of being Gaby's buddy...

It has been really fun having you around. I will miss you very much. Do feel free to drop by whenever u want. Byesss.

May you never steal, lie or cheat. But if you must steal, then steal away my sorrows, if you must lie, lie with me all the nights of my life and if you must cheat, please cheat death because i couldn't live a day without you....

Beethoven's letters to his Immortal Beloved.
Ever thine.
Ever mine.
Ever ours.