I don't love you as if you were the salt-rose, topaz
or arrow of carnations that propagate fire:
I love you as certain dark things are loved,
secretly, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that doesn't bloom and carries
hidden within itself the light of those flowers,
and thanks to your love, darkly in my body
lives the dense fragrance that rises from the earth.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where,
I love you simply, without problems or pride:
I love you in this way because I don't know any other way of loving

but this, in which there is no I or you,
so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand,
so intimate that when I fall asleep it is your eyes that close.

So how? To stop... no?

And this morning is back to 120ml... so what does that mean? To continue and let it dry out naturally?? Confused!

Lowest today

I really think my breastfeeding days are numbered... very numbered. This morning's harvest was just 60ml... the ususal morning ollection was between 180ml to 160ml. But since 2 mornings ago, it has dropped to 150ml. I have alrady sensed it that my milk flow will cut dwn these few days becos even the daytime collection was diminshing. From a collection of 100ml per pump to 60ml per pump.

I am feeling abit of mixed feelings. I have been thinking of losing weight or so long and it means that if i cut down on my carbo intake, my milk flow will be affected. So I have been toying with the idea of stopping for a while. and now that the flow is lesser, I am feeling some sort of sad. Sad that my boy will no longer enjy the goodness from his mother. Somehow i feel that by me stopping giving Alexius breastmilk, it means that he is no longer a baby. I know I know that he is already 2years and 1 month old... not a baby any more. But somehow, I feel that he is a baby since he is still drinking my milk.

Guess I just have t face the fact la...

How to stop itchy mozzy bite?

a drop of breastmilk...